I had got in the flow of writing more, but back there in December I got online to see yet again everything had yet again changed on wordpress, I found I needed to go through 3-4 steps where before ONE got me where I wanted to go, yet still all the blogging 101 and 201 as well as writing 201 were not just still on my list of blogs, but now they seemed in the way, the first I come to, while what I really want is down the list .. This was somehow topped by that weeks photo challenge from the daily post … this Oops  I had screen shots ready to partake, felt a little naughty but .. thought why not ..I’ll save you the pics, cause I’m sure some or most of you are also stuck with all common rooms no longer used that you can not delete 😦

As all of us, I’m sure, I also had some other fun .. but not so great shots to add or even some good OOOOps’s for a laugh  .. but then I sat there and I looked at the screen at the Oops challenge .. and all I could think was .. & this is from the editor of wordpress.. what am I doing wasting my time here.

I also started pondering why easy to find the “chosen” pressed wordpress blogs, but even with a Google search not that many blogs come up. I have to say here that the way I mostly find another wordpress blog is by accident, searching for something unrelated to wordpress and stumbling upon something interesting. Made me wonder why there is not a page where all blogs can be seen when posted, a bit like the news feed at FB or Minds or Twitter and so on .. give us all a chance  .. of a major lucky dip as to what we come across and want to see more off.

Well there are beautiful issues, serious issues, funny ones, and oh so much more out there, but, I had this feeling that it would not matter what we write  … if it did not fit with the “click” of most “popular” mams n dads at school, like the “in” crowd at school .. which all I really had to say to ..apart from the occasional wide eyes and raised eyebrow..  was “REALLY” ..

I got a feeling of having to have a kid, and negate my intelligence for “acceptable” topics, which is somewhat beyond horrifying to me, as being responsible for a beautiful little life .. in my book should get the intelligence and awareness of all that is essential for the beat health and well being for such a precious gift, to come out in force, to come out in force to inform themselves of all that may harm .. as well as all that is safe and beautiful, funny and joyous.

we are living in a world where big Pharma and all the petrochemical producers have been systematically harming our food and our baby and beauty products. The SCIENCE has been available for along time, but repressed, and aided by all those that do not want to know.

Just saw today that even Johnson & Johnson has now payed out 72 million recently as their BABY POWDER is LINKED DIRECTLY TO OVERRAN CANCER .. so pardon me but “REALLY”

That was a bit of an extra, didn’t mean to go there, but for way over 20 years I’ve batting my head against the walls people put up so as not to “upset” themselves .. Upset themselves with something that can save their lives ????

Free will n all, but darn its hard to witness people being slowly and painfully tortured and killed by chemo and radiation .. and their doctors demand complete obedience .. or no help … that’s murder in my opinion  ..

Thing is though I know in a different way that doctors do nothing to help even when they easily can ..if you do not fit into their required box of “YES please doc” to all their poison .

NOT KNOWING or REFUSING TO simply means everyone has ticked the following boxes

box tick … yes please poison my food

box tick … yes please poison me and my children with heavy metals and other horrors in vaccines and other petrochemical medications

box tick … yes please … cut down the rain forest ..the lungs of the earth so ..the fast food giants can feed me cheep burgers filled with more petrochemicals that my body can deal with ..

& BOX TICK …. OH YES PLEASE  give me pills  to deal with all the BAD EFFECTS of the chemicals I eat and breathe …and lather upon my skin so I can feel even worse .. because I refuse to listen to my own body that is SCREAMING to me that it requires healing .. that it requires LOVE .. TRUTH .. and something that is REAL .. NURTURING

Illness is basically your body being DONE being disrespected by you !

What ? NOT FUNNY ..

NO it isn’t

But you give your power ..your free will to those that disrespect it FINE

but you are also giving them your children … to harm

is that also Fine by you … and ..Oh yes please box ticked ? because you prefer to stay ignorant ?

NO

That’s GOOD

Because having been raped by a doctor at age 4 and had NO HELP from anyone .. ever .. and had nothing but disrespect form doctors ever after for refusing to fit their ticked boxes, and for insisting on finding how and where to report it properly, even though they refused to say anything about anything … I have been that child left to fend for herself, her own wounds to heal .. with not just no help.. but hindrances because I know more than they do about what is in their medicines… and that is all they do these days .. sign their name to a prescription for poison.

So my Oops

Marianne  1970-71

Me at 4 .. just before … OOOOPPPS … broken … unwanted … or so my mother said I would always be if I ever spoke about what happened .. told anyone … She my pap and 22 year old older brother who knew basically just ticked the  box of “do nothing” “say nothing” ++

I finally found the Police man .. One person of only 2 in my whole life who has actually asked me how I am and if I am really ok  .. in the right place to report it to .. not long before this last Xmas .. On my own I found him … .. before that any doctor or official I asked or wrote to  .. just blocked me  … IT is Now a Cold Case file .. Its a chapter done after 40+ years of being fobbed off … or asking the right questions … for refusing to allow any more harm to myself or to anyone else ..

RESPECT is earned ..and should never just be freely given away … and it should always be mutual ..

LOVE & Forgiveness is the deepest and most powerful strength !

& Healing is a total state of mind and HEART .

Maia

 

 

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2 thoughts on “Its been a while.. had a lot on my mind and in my heart

  1. Hey, it’s good to have you back Marianne!
    I’ve missed your posts, observations and wisdom.
    I hesitate with this next bit; but I feel your pain and I wish I could ease that for you.
    This internet thing is funny and sometimes it means that we are not alone, will you accept an e-hug?
    Dookes

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